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Back to Search#128 things NOT happening are NOT loss/failure
Season 9 Episode 3
I realized I have an absurd relationship and understanding of things NOT happening in my life. I think they are loss or failure. But how can somethin…
7 months, 3 weeks ago
#127 The Morning After. What Now?
Season 9 Episode 2
The morning after I found out my rape trial is 'cancelled'... What now? How do I live again? Love again? Relax my nervous system? Think beyond all th…
7 months, 4 weeks ago
#126 When It’s Over. Begin Again. (Rape Trial Conclusion)
Season 9 Episode 1
Had a call today with the prosecuting attorney. (I didn’t see this coming… even though I have felt for the last few weeks that I just need to live an…
7 months, 4 weeks ago
#125 Dying to Live Again (again!)
Season 8 Episode 11
Dying is a process. I takes more than saying words, or feeling emotions, or even enduring the chaos of the mind as its old structures die. It takes a…
8 months ago
#124 Jekyll & Hyde In Me :)
Season 8 Episode 10
Well, here goes shame! I am admitting there has been more than one me in here, and possibly more than two, but let's stick with two for today, namel…
8 months ago
#123 Body Lockdown=Misunderstanding
Season 8 Episode 9
My left hip spoke to me recently, told me that it locked-down 15 years ago because of a misunderstanding, my misunderstanding; I did not understand t…
8 months, 1 week ago
#122 Patience before Hard Conversations is Magic
Season 8 Episode 8
I have worked my whole life to have healthy, healing, strengthening conversations, the ones which require each person to dwell in the discomfort of t…
8 months, 2 weeks ago
#121 The Golden Thread of Resilience
Season 8 Episode 7
I am resilient. But not all the time. It happens best when I find the golden thread of my journey, and follow. I don’t just find this thread lying ar…
8 months, 3 weeks ago
#120 Love Letter To My Nervous System
Season 8 Episode 6
After 15 years of having a very active nervous system, and so faithful, like Old Faithful at Yellowstone National Park, I’m done. This is my love let…
9 months ago
#119 Fighting to Live & Dying to Live
Season 8 Episode 5
I know 'fighting to live' very well. What is new to me is 'dying to live'. I thought it would be a less active process but it requires much of the sa…
9 months ago