Podcast Episodes

Trapped By My Criminal Father: My Life on the Run

Episode 307

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CW:  CA, DV, Mentions of CSA Material & Suicidal Attempts/Ideation.  Zett Espinoza was born into a professional criminal family in Los Angeles. Her mother strug…

Published on 3 weeks, 1 day ago

Why Prominent NEO NAZl Teen Denounced His White Power Movement

Episode 306

CW: Suicidal ideation, self harm.  Born in the 1970s in Wisconsin, Arno grew up in a turbulent environment with alcohol, fighting, and family dysfunction around him.  As a teenager, he was angry, reb…

Published on 3 weeks, 2 days ago

ULTRA ORTHODOX: Unprepared For the Outside World (after Narcissistic Parents)

Episode 305

CW:  SA, ED, Suicidal Ideation.  Growing up Ultra Orthodox in an extremely abusive home, left Tzivya Murrin completely unprepared for the outside world. She tried to get help multiple times to get aw…

Published on 3 weeks, 3 days ago

ULTRA ORTHODOX: Community Enables Her Parents Doing the Unspeakable

Episode 304

CW:  CSA, CA, ED, Suicidal Ideation.  In a system that keeps victims silent in their pain, perpetrators go unchecked and are further emboldened to inflict harm. Tzivya Murrin was trapped in this syst…

Published on 3 weeks, 4 days ago

BREAKING: Tragedy Hits Mormon Church Twice Over Weekend

Episode 311

Targeted violence hit a Mormon church in Michigan which claimed at least 5 lives. The same day, it was discovered that the LDS prophet had passed away at 101 years old. A weekend full of grief. We wi…

Published on 4 weeks ago

TWELVE TRIBES: Mother & Son Confront His Childhood in the Yellow Deli Cult

Episode 303

Tamara was a new mom seeking connection and community in a scary world where simplicity was romanticized. She was introduced to the Twelve Tribes by a family member and after some love bombing on som…

Published on 4 weeks ago

The Dark Reality of Growing Up In the TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult

Episode 302

Just before Emmet Mathieu was 2 years old, his mother Tamara longed for community and simple living, so she convinced her husband to permanently move into the Twelve Tribes commune. Immediate regret …

Published on 4 weeks, 1 day ago

Rejoining Society After 14 Years in TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult

Episode 301

After joining what Tamara Mathieu thought would be a wholesome, down to earth, communal family group in August of 2000, things quickly went downhill— she immediately regretted her decision.  At 23 ye…

Published on 4 weeks, 2 days ago

Lured into the TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult

Episode 300

Lured into the TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult

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Tamara Mathieu was a new mother in a scary world where Columbine had just happened. Romanticizing a simple life a…

Published on 1 month ago

She Silenced Whistleblowers of Abusive Evangelical Academy, Then Became One (Why She Flipped)

Episode 299

Featured in the Shiny Happy People 2 doc-series, Cindy was deep in evangelical nationalism when she was hired as head of PR to silence whistleblowers from the Honor Academy at Teen Mania. She was tol…

Published on 1 month ago