Episode Details

What happens when you spend years feeling invisible - even while surrounded by people who love Jesus? 

In this powerful conversation, Jillian shares a deeply personal testimony of childhood assault, teen pregnancy, harmful secrets kept with good intentions, and the choices that followed as she struggled to find her identity and worth. 

Growing up as a pastor’s kid, Jillian knew about God. 

But knowing about God and truly trusting Him are not always the same thing. Behind the scenes, she carried pain, shame, secrets, and the overwhelming feeling that no one really saw her. But God did. 

Even in the years when Jillian wandered, made choices she regrets, and tried to navigate life on her own, God never stopped pursuing her. And when she finally turned back toward Him, she discovered something beautiful: the God who saw her in her brokenness was also the God who could restore what had been broken. 

Her story is a reminder that your pain does not make you invisible, your past does not disqualify you, and there is no place you can wander that puts you beyond the reach of God’s grace. 

If you’ve ever felt unseen, buried a secret to protect someone else, wondered if your past has disqualified you, or questioned whether God could still redeem your story - Jillian’s testimony is for you. 

God sees you. God pursues you. And God is still in the business of restoration. 

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