Episode Details

When Emilee Rathgeber lost her sister and best friend, Halee, in 2017, her world changed forever. In the middle of unimaginable grief, Emilee found herself angry at God.. and then faced another painful reality: being made to feel like she wasn’t allowed to be angry with Him. 

In this deeply honest conversation, Emilee shares what it was like to grieve Halee during her senior year of high school, wrestle with the questions she couldn’t answer, and navigate the tension between faith and anger. She opens up about the things she wished people had understood about her grief and what happened when she finally stopped hiding her feelings from God. 

This is a conversation about loss, anger, grief, faith, and the God who can handle our hardest questions. 

If you’ve ever been hurt, disappointed, or angry with God - and wondered if that meant you weren’t trusting Him enough... Emilee’s story is a reminder that we don’t have to hide our pain from God. We can bring Him all of it. 

If this conversation resonates with you, please share it with someone who may need to hear it. 

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