Episode Details

It started innocently enough—just 10 pounds. A simple goal that millions of women set every day. But for me, that decision to lose "just 10 pounds" became the beginning of years trapped in an eating disorder.

Today I'm re-sharing the story of the day my dreams were crushed by one comment, and how the belief that "something is wrong with me" became the foundation of my disordered eating. More importantly, I'm revealing why this same toxic belief might be keeping you trapped.

In this vulnerable episode, you'll discover:

• The skating audition that changed everything with one cruel comment
• Why believing "something is wrong with you" is your biggest recovery obstacle
• How 10 pounds became 15, then 20, then 30 in a dangerous spiral
• The difference between walking in the storm and being the storm
• How to go back and heal your wounded inner child
• Why you were chosen to be free, not perfect
• The question that changes everything: "How would you live if nothing was wrong with you?"

For the woman ready to stop believing she's the problem.

I was living my childhood dream—skating at the rink I'd only watched others perform at as a little girl. The audition was going perfectly. Every jump, every spin—years of training paying off.

Then came the soul-crushing words: "Well, Lindsay, your skating is amazing. However, come back when you've lost 10 pounds."

Those words stung harder than any ice burn or fall. I left that day a changed person, believing something was fundamentally wrong with me.

The dangerous spiral: 10 pounds became 15, then 20, then 25, then 30. What started as proving I could lose weight became an obsession that consumed my life.

The biggest problem you'll face in your quest to freedom: Holding onto the belief that something is wrong with you.

Just like me, you may have received messages that you weren't good enough as you were—from people who likely didn't have their own needs met and were passing down their wounds.

Your eating disorder doesn't define who you are. It's something you've experienced, just like my crushing audition moment.

Time to let go of who you think you need to be.

How would you live differently if you believed there was nothing wrong with you?

For years, I lived as if