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• finished verse seven in the "forgiveness of yourself" chapter, "Song of Psalms". start reading verse eight next
• Interpretation of Forgiveness and Society: Soo Kim shared that the concept of forgiveness was starting to "click" for them, noting that it felt like an "upside down world" compared to what they are taught by society. Jevon Perra agreed that the teaching is counterintuitive because society promotes the idea of a "special separate thing" that will find happiness in its separateness, which they identified as the source of suffering.
• The Nature of Personal Accomplishment: Jevon Perra discussed how personal accomplishment will not lead to ultimate happiness, citing this as a sad epiphany. They explained that the fun part is starting a new venture and the complete fantasy of success, as well as the ability to "completely lose myself" and forget their separate self in the activity.
• Separation and the Illusion of Self: Jevon Perra likened the effort to maintain separateness—which is the darkness, guilt, and separation—to running a "fog machine" that prevents them from seeing the truth. They referenced a show at Disneyland that projects an image onto a wall of mist, stating that the mist is essential to get lost and deceived in the image.
• Reading and Interpretation of Verse Nine and Ten: Soo Kim read verses nine and ten, which discuss that forgiveness is the key, but one must first find the door for which the key was made. The text states that the concept of "forgiveness to destroy" must be cleansed of its hateful goals and unveiled in its treachery before it can be let go, allowing learning to be complete.
• Defining "Forgiveness to Destroy": Jevon Perra defined "forgiveness to destroy" as forgiving someone while still viewing them as an offender or enemy. This practice keeps the separation alive, reinforcing the idea of a special, separate self with separate desires, leading to a zero-sum game where suffering persists.
• Achieving Acceptance and Moving Past Separation: Soo Kim suggested that acceptance, or "radical acceptance," is necessary to move past separateness, which involves recognizing that others are acting from a place of innocence. Jevon Perra questioned what "innocent" means in the context of bad behavior, and Soo Kim clarified that innocence refers to their essence, or the place where people are the same.
• Morality and the Lack of Inherent Meaning in Actions: Jevon Perra argued that morality sets up a world of polarity, where good and bad actions are defined by cultural context, suggesting that no action has inherent meaning. They asserted that morality is not an ultimate way to achieve happiness, though it can serve as a "good architecture" to build from and later be torn down, similar to developing the ego before one can overcome it.
• The Practice of Saying "I Am God": Jevon Perra mentioned using the mantra "I am God," noting that to speak this truth, one must be in the correct state, not operating from a separate, egoic perspective. They explained that this requires shifting from "spotlight vision"—which focuses on details and success/failure—to "flood light vision," which is peripheral and expanded.
• Personality and the Experience of Suffering: Jevon Perra described the personality as a program of reoccurring thoughts and beliefs that can be recoded, but which remains separate. They observed that when operating in the "spotlight" or laser version of awareness, they suffer, and freedom is instantly felt when they expand to the wide "flood light" perspective.

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