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One of the things that I am deeply in contemplation about is what identity really means. Do I need to identify as a person? As my gender? As my vocation? Just as a human being? Or as a polymath that has so many different variations depending on which angle I am willing to serve and to express in that given moment.

"I thought of a labyrinth of labyrinths, of one sinuous spreading labyrinth that would encompass the past and the future and in some way involve the stars."

Jorge Luis Borges — The Garden of Forking Paths, in Ficciones, 1944

SYNTHESIS

What is converging in my life right now is the recognition that everything I have been building interiorly for a long time is slowly ready to move into the world, and the steadiness I feel in that recognition comes from the quality of the interior work itself, the untangling of the chords that shaped me prior to choosing otherwise, the freeing of space that was previously occupied by patterns that were never mine to carry.

I feel blessed because I have been meeting with Mark Jones for 18 months steadily to support the navigation into my psychic untangling. Any chords that defined me are now being freed by the space. It is human action at its best, far away from being an effort or hard work.

Who is Mark Jones, you may ask? He is the astrologer and psychotherapist whose books and teachings have accompanied my understanding of evolutionary astrology for a long time, long enough that I waited for many years before I felt ready to receive a reading and direct transmissions from him. That moment arrived in 2024. We met for the first time in mid-October 2024, and a couple of months later I knew I was ready to commit to a deeper working relationship. These are conversations where the chart serves as a living map and you are always the territory, always interior, always personal, always asking what is actually driving this, and what would it feel like to stop being driven by something that was never yours to carry in the first place.

My Pluto in the 8th house requires this kind of work, it cannot operate on the surface. It is important to have a guide who can hold the depth without flinching, who reflects what is said with precision and returns it with a quality of witness that makes it possible to see something that was previously too close to be seen clearly.

Trust is my middle name Inner trust is my inner and outer authority Trust is the architecture of my value

“Time is the substance I am made of. Time is a river which sweeps me along, but I am the river; it is a tiger which destroys me, but I am the tiger; it is a fire which consumes me, but I am the fire.”

Jorge Luis Borges — A New Refutation of Time, in Other Inquisitions, 1952

FACTS

I had my solar return last week. My Sun is in Taurus in the 3rd house, and within days of that threshold, Mercury is returning to Taurus and Mars is returning to Aries. Venus follows, returning to Gemini in the 5th house. Four personal planets resetting within the same window the new solar year opens. The entire personal field seeds itself again from the beginning, all at once, in the first days of year 5.

The full Moon landed exactly on my natal Moon in Scorpio in the 9th house, and it formed a Finger of God [YOD] with Saturn and Venus as the two base points pointing directly to that Moon. A Finger of God is a precise convergence, two inconjunct lines meeting at an apex that has no choice but to receive what they are sending. Saturn and Venus both in quincunx [150° aspect] to my Moon in Scorpio meant the full illumination of the emotional body arrived through a double adjustment from structure and from creative value simultaneously. This was a full calibration, a precise demand from the chart that I receive the instruction