Episode Details

Are you on an emotional rollercoaster right now? Mood swings all over the place? Feeling like you're going nowhere fast? You're not going crazy—you're going through the identity crisis every woman faces in ED recovery.

When you're transforming from an unhealthy relationship with food, you have to release who you were in the disorder to discover who you truly are. It's like breaking up with a toxic boyfriend who's controlled your identity for years.

This episode covers:

• Why recovery feels like losing yourself (and why that's actually good)
• The 5 stages of grief you must go through to heal
• How your eating disorder became your identity without you realizing it
• Why letting go of an ED is like losing a loved one
• The toxic boyfriend metaphor that changes everything
• How grief reveals who you truly are
• What to do when you feel lost without your disorder

Ready to shed your "disorder self" and discover your true identity?

"This is just who I am" or "I've never really been a bread eater" or "I'm not the type of person that enjoys sweets."

Raw truth: Your eating disorder is not the type of person that eats bread or enjoys sweets. The disorder owns that part of you—it's not actually YOU.

You've been living under a lie, not allowing yourself permission to even know if you prefer certain things because you've restricted yourself for so long.

This blending of identity must be addressed to build your true best self.

For years, your disorder has become:

• Your shell and safe place
• Your haven, cave, retreat
• Where you control so much that you struggle imagining life without it

Who would you be if you didn't read labels, count calories, care about the scale, or bargain in your mind all day?

When you realize you want out, you graduate into "emotional overload avenue." You've masked emotions with your disorder for years—when you start recovering, you realize the disorder is separate from you.

Your eating disorder is like a toxic, controlling boyfriend:

Some days