Episode Details

🎙️ Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435
⏱️ Duration: 1 hour, 22 minutes
📅 Recorded on: 20 September 2025
🧠 Topic: Deep personal reflection on mental health, especially bipolar disorder and EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) 🧵 OVERVIEW This episode of Let Me Bore You To Sleep is a raw, meandering, yet heartfelt monologue where Jason Newland reflects on recent tech struggles with his podcast, then opens up about his personal experiences with bipolar disorder and EUPD. It evolves from a casual update into a deep dive into the complexities of living with fluctuating mental health. He discusses diagnosis, therapy, medication, and how others have misunderstood his journey. There's also a lot of self-deprecating humor, honesty, and vulnerability throughout. 🧩 STRUCTURED SUMMARY ⛓️ Part 1: Podcast & Website Woes (~0:00–9:00)

• Jason is frustrated about recent problems with Apple Podcasts, which drastically dropped his listenership stats.
• He shares that he’s been working hard to fix the issue and reorganize his website, letmeboreyoutosleep.com.
• He’s visibly tired and emotionally drained by the tech issues but reassures listeners that things are working again.
• Shout-outs to new Facebook group members, Karen and Kaylee.

🧠 Part 2: Mental Health Journey Begins (~9:00–18:00)

• Jason discusses a recent GP phone appointment, which resulted in a referral to a mental health nurse and an increase in his medication.
• Humorously notes that he may become even “slower and more boring” with the new dosage.
• Reflects on past manic behavior from 2011 and being diagnosed with bipolar disorder later that year.
• Talks about how his mood swings began in childhood and shares prior experiences with antidepressants and anxiety from as far back as 1995.

💊 Part 3: Medication Stigma & Acceptance (~18:00–27:00)

• Shares a story about a friend at a Buddhist center who encouraged him to accept medication as part of wellness, despite Jason’s initial resistance.
• Uses a humorous appendix analogy to emphasize that you don’t refuse treatment for physical illness—so why for mental health?
• Admits that past judgment from others made him hesitant about long-term medication use.

🧍♂️ Part 4: EUPD & Dual Diagnosis (~27:00–42:00)

• Delves into the co-diagnosis of EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) and bipolar.
• Shocked to learn of the EUPD diagnosis years after therapy began.
• Recalls a 5-year treatment period that included:
  • DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy)
  • Group therapy
  • Psychotherapy at home
• Shares how mood instability, impulsivity, and difficulty with relationships are key EUPD symptoms he relates to.

🎭 Part 5: Humor, Dating, and Disguises (~42:00–59:00)

• Veers into lighthearted stories:
  • Taking his ferret Andre into town.
  • Online dating and profile pictures.
  • Hilariously cynical commentary on filtered dating profile photos and photo manipulation.
• Recounts a short-lived romantic encounter that ended just before a critical psychiatric evaluation, which ironically led professionals to think he was “fine” due to being in a good mood.

⚖️ Part 6: Bipolar Diagnosis – The Real One (~59:00–1:10:00)

• Shares how in 2011, a new doctor finally took him seriously and referred him for proper diagnosis.
• Officially diagnosed with bipolar affective disorder (again) in December 2011.
• Talks about years of ups and downs, job loss, and therapy.
• Begins understanding his pattern of mood cycles and their impact on life and relationships.

📚 Part 7: Final Thoughts – Acceptance & Awareness (~1:10:00–1:22:00)

• He explores how both bipolar and EUPD explain so much of his lived experience.
• Researches EUPD symptoms live during the r