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Man can choose either to identify himself with the results of the past, or to become a creative participant in the unfolding of a new cycle.

Dane Rudhyar, The Pulse of Life

The question these days that arises inside of me is how do you rebuild when everything is crumbling and what stands up is just the columns of old structures that no longer stand. How do you rebuild, what do you save, what do you actually eliminate for good.

Because of having been under the weather for over three weeks, it was for sure a reset that my body needed; especially as my nervous system was being rewired from the core. My body started showing signs of needing more sleep, less food, and taking more time to remain still so I could slowly adapt and restructure. Although I do not label myself as being sick, I see it as an opportunity to remove old tracks.

The first week was hard, having come back from Medellín, old tracks were again flaring. These tracks, I have come to understand, are often unconscious sensory or emotional imprints, echoes of past moments that, when touched again by a familiar place, scent, voice, or feeling, can quietly awaken stored patterns in the body. Environmental or emotional reminders from Medellín or similar contexts may have reignited these patterns in my nervous system, briefly reactivating parts of a previously unresolved or healing biological program.

The second week slowly showed me that rest, stillness, sleep, and no food were medicine. Any relationship to the outside world I met with distance and emotional maturity. There was no space for error. I am starting the third week, which follows a time of profound realizations. It is all about integration. Today, under the rays of the sun and with colder weather than usual, my bronchi are responding to bone broth and soft care. My body, it seems, still knows exactly what it is doing.

I still cannot see the full clarity of things, just a glimpse. What I see is that we are in the middle of the mess, too many things to be distracted by, too many emotions from others that can spoil or contaminate my environment. I do not need to react to anybody’s low self-esteem or expectations of me. I am fully activated as a responsible being.

I see the panic of the markets, and I see the panic of everybody being on a list and trying hard to discriminate others. Even award season is a circus. Why bother? Why are you still surprised. We live in a psy-op of a psy-op of a psy-op.

Nothing that you have experienced in your life since you were born is true, nor your parents and grandparents. Nothing. From all the b******t they gave you in kindergarten, preschool, high school, and furthermore, if you went through academia, then you are triple screwed. And if you engage in any kind of activity that has a very specific way of achieving success, then you have been severely, severely programmed.

I managed to understand where I have been shaped by propaganda and how to get out of certain parts. I still find that there were things that were severely conditioned in me. So again, the question is how to rebuild, this is a time of creation. The fourth turning is here, but you do not wait until the last day; you start rebuilding already, too many distractions? Well, some discipline, for Christ’s sake.

Why do people want to wait until the last building falls before acting? Because they previously ignored the signs; that is why others have made radical changes and are now planting seeds elsewhere.

One thing that I do, because my body has asked me to, is to stand objectively at the tower or mountain view. Just observe, annotate, breathe. Do not think, do not analyze, do not judge; just absorb. Thank God for my variables. I have three rights and one left, PRL DRR.

This combination means having a focused, logical, and forward-thinking mindset paired with a body that thrives on a go-with-the-flow, laid-back, and intuitive li