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Back to EpisodesREST IN GOD (when things feel f#@k'd). ACIM Lesson 109.
Published 3 months, 2 weeks ago
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- Morning Gathering and Spiritual Reading Denise Darlene joined Jevon Perra and later Soo Kim for a morning session. Denise Darlene shared a reading from the deck about being "sustained by the love of God," which she said was chosen randomly. Jevon Perra expressed that the concept of being sustained by God's love was helpful, especially in the context of personal "freaking out about sustenance" due to considering quitting a job to start a new venture (00:00:38).
- Conflict of Thought Systems Jevon Perra described two conflicting internal conversations: one promoting "massive activity" out of fear of financial doom and the other, which is more aligned with Denise Darlene's teachings, emphasizing sustenance from God's love and the release of attachments to accomplishments. Denise Darlene confirmed that the fearful voice, which Jevon Perra feels is only focused on activity as hope, is the "ego voice," and awareness of this voice is 80% of the work in overcoming such struggles (00:02:01) (00:04:36).
- Ego and the Fear of Failure Denise Darlene explained that the ego is afraid of failure because it understands its limitations, recounting a personal anecdote from a coaching session where she was told, "Oh, you don't" matter when expressing a fear of not mattering if she did not produce something (00:04:36). She stressed that trying to matter or achieve, driven by ego beliefs, will never work, which Jevon Perra confirmed based on personal "data" that shows they are financially secure yet still driven by the "accomplishment muscle" (00:05:48). Jevon Perra noted that this activity acts as a distraction from the stillness, which feels like "dying" to the ego mechanism (00:07:06).
- Discipline and Spiritual Perspective Denise Darlene advised Jevon Perra to practice discipline by being still and letting the fearful ego thoughts arise and pass without attaching to them, which she suggests is essential for discovering deeper issues (00:08:35). She stated that Jevon Perra's perspective is flawed by focusing on an amount of money rather than acknowledging oneness with God, reinforcing the spiritual perspective that God is the sole source of supply. Denise Darlene referenced Christian mystic Joel Goldsmith's teaching, which redirects focus from physical senses to spiritual reality, similar to the principle in A Course in Miracles that things do not have the meaning placed upon them by the observer (00:09:41).
- Oneness with God and Non-Doing Denise Darlene emphasized that the spiritual filter of "oneness with God" means "all that God is and all that God has is already present," and Jesus taught to "