Episode Details

You ever buy a twenty-two-dollar airport sandwich and convinced yourself it was worth it?

That’s what this week’s episode is about — except the sandwich is a photography competition.

In Gold Star, Patrick unpacks his love-hate relationship with the American Photographic Artists’ Untitled competition — and what it reveals about the creative world’s obsession with approval. From spreadsheets of judges to award-show absurdities like the Oscars and Grammys, this episode digs into why artists still crave validation from systems they don’t even believe in.

It’s funny, frustrated, and a little too honest — a meditation on why we keep chasing the gold stars that will never love us back.

Featuring a clip from Jim Carrey’s Golden Globes speech, a story about Patrick’s first Houston Addy Award, and a Light Leak that challenges you to make something that doesn’t need anyone’s permission to exist.

You’ll hear about:

• Why creative competitions feel like overpriced validation
• The psychology of approval and the decay of validation
• What Jim Carrey can teach us about artistic hunger
• How to stop mistaking opportunity for illusion
• Why the real reward is the right to keep doing the work

Mentioned in this episode:

• American Photographic Artists (APA Untitled Competition)
• Jim Carrey’s 2016 Golden Globes speech
• The Addy Awards (American Advertising Federation)
• Rick Rubin, Diane Arbus, Van Gogh, Tom Sachs

Light Leak: The Paradox of the Work

What if you stopped making work for judges, algorithms, and invisible audiences — and started making the thing that’s too honest to explain?