Episode Details

From a desperate mother in poverty to an American Romani family, Amanda had no trace of who she was. All of her documents were either destroyed or hidden and any trace of her biological mother was gone. Her life was a paradox of luxury coupled with ab*se and isolation. Kept out of school and othered for being adopted, she felt completely alone. Amanda was pushed into an arranged marriage which turned into another nightmare. Find out how she escaped.

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Chapter Marks

00:00:00 Intro

00:03:29  How Amanda Came Across Cults to Consciousness & Decided to Share Her Story

00:05:42 CW: Traff*cked as an infant; Issues of Not Having Documentation

00:10:34  Background on Amanda’s Biological Mother & Some of Her Health Issues

00:14:00 CW: CA, CSA, Amanda Shares Her Most Prominent ChiIdhood Memories

00:19:57 Amanda Explains Some of the Romani Foundational Beliefs & Practices

00:24:07 CW: CA, DV, Amanda’s Observations of Ab*se Amongst the Romani People

00:28:34 CW: CA, DV, SA, CSA, Details About Amanda’s Father's Targeted Ab*se & Control

00:30:48 Romani Marriages & How Amanda Rebelled Against Her Own

00:35:58 How Amanda Was Deprived A Traditional Education & Her Efforts to Learn

00:40:44 The Materialism of The Romani & The Control Amanda Was Subject To

00:44:28 What the day to day looked like for Amanda and her family

00:47:02 Amanda Gives Examples of How the Romani Make Their Living

00:51:25 CW: Marital R*pe, SA, Amanda’s First Marriage Within the Romani Community

00:59:12 CW: DV, Amanda’s attempts to Leave Her Marriage And Turning to Alcohol to Cope

01:05:10 CW: Suic*de Attempts

01:08:34 What Makes Amanda Happy Now That She's Out

01:12:17 How Amanda Was Finally Able to Lea