Ep 17 Why I left AA after 10 years

Episode 17

🎧 Episode Summary:

In this raw, unfiltered, and deeply personal episode, I finally break my silence and my anonymity around Alcoholics Anonymous. After 10 years as a devoted, true-believer AA member and 5 years since leaving the program, I'm opening up about why I left — and what happened next.

This is the story of what it means to evolve beyond recovery. It’s not an AA bash-fest. It’s a soul-truth telling, and my intention is to liberate anyone who’s been quietly wrestling with doubts, dissonance, and the terrifying question: What if I leave... and I die?

I share:

The moment I realized I was in a high-control ideology
How critical thinking cracked open my AA worldview
The painful (and freeing) process of deprogramming
Why I now believe recovery can become learned helplessness
How I discovered I was autistic and ADHD after leaving AA
What recovery actually means to me now
The surprising grief, fear, and freedom that comes from walking away

If you've ever felt trapped in a program that once saved you, or you’ve questioned whether staying is still serving your evolution — this episode is for you.

I share this not to convince, but to validate, to liberate, and to remind you: You're allowed to grow beyond where you started.

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