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NOte: it is a long one, I won’t post anything next week, enjoy!

Masks off

A few weeks ago I was packing to go for a week down to Bogota where the average temperature is 15°C [60°F], and since I moved to Miami Beach my average temp is 26 °C [80°F]. When I was choosing what to pack and wear in the colder weather, I paused in surprise and asked: 

-Whose are these garments? Who is the person wearing these clothes? LOL!

I could not recognize the now Monika with the Monika that lived in NYC and spent 27 winters there!

So the persona I had embodied was no longer vibrating at the same frequency now, after 33 months [almost three years], and that brought a huge smile to my face! ‘Evolution’ means growth to maturity and development of an individual living thing, also felt as a detachment, a growing out, growing up, letting go, innovating, mutating…

How many Personas have I consciously left behind, shed, and disembodied so drastically, and at times smoothly and less violently? Two? Three? Four? Does it have anything to do with celestial alignments, sine wave oscillations that meet again and again, such as Saturn's returns [every 28.5 years], or lunar nodes returning and passing through specific angles every 18.6 years? Fractions of that perhaps? 

Well, I feel these geometric events that happen as harmonious or not so harmonious serve as validators and reminders of what surrendering to my Geometry is.

The last lunar eclipse was very potent, the cycle of the last 18.612958 years (6,798.383 days) completed yet again another revolution in my chart. 

What did I release? The masks I had to wear just to be! (Or I thought I needed to be!) Gabor Maté calls these behaviors adaptations– at times one has to adapt to the environment because one does not feel safe and is lacking a connection to one’s essential needs, so one trades this connection for validation as a way to survive what is, thus there is no authenticity. One is acting out, wearing a mask, a persona. 

The deal is to start recognizing the adaptations and to work with them as one changes the ideas held behind that make their behavior endure. Changing a point of view, for instance, is an incredible event that supports evolution.

“The persona is what we would like to be and how we wish to be seen by the world. It is our psychological clothing and it mediates between our true selves and our environment just as our physical clothing presents an image to those we meet. The ego is what we are and know about consciously. The shadow is that part of us we fail to see or know.” ― Robert A. Johnson, Owning Your Own Shadow: Understanding the Dark Side of the Psyche

On Nov 8, 2022, there was a lunar eclipse (full moon) at 16°of Taurus - Scorpio axis, Uranus was between the Moon and the North Node opposing my Neptune. The nodes were at 13° at the same axis, the dissolution of multiple personas I had worn started to be felt, and by May 5th, 2023, [178 days later] the lunar eclipse opened again another portal between my natal Moon at 12°18 Scorpio (just learned it aligns with Alphecca fixed star) and my natal Neptune (16° Scorpio). This time the full moon in was at 15° Scorpio.

Both celestial bodies are each at one side of my 13°Scorpio MC, which refers to the public persona. It felt as if the last 9 months had been a preparation for a new platform I am about to embark on. There is no defined shape, as I will work together with Jupiter entering Taurus and squaring Pluto– this is an opportunity for the collective to allow new views to shape new fields based on the now moment. Tradition is important, but as evolving specifies we can’t survive if all ideals become stagnant.