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Note: I missed one week, so here it is, a bit long article, enjoy!

Greetings, beautiful souls who graciously take the time to delve into my thoughts amidst the chaos that surrounds us, both internally and externally.

I can’t recall another schizophrenic time like this, honestly; it feels like a whirlwind, evoking memories of surreal times when I was high on substances, navigating altered states, disconnected, soothing my pains temporarily behind a veil.

Back then, my imagination sprinted as it was on speed while weaving fantastical realms—ironic, whimsical, shaped by a blend of faith and (de)illusion.

However, this time, there are no external factors such as substances, and there's no veil either. Even in sporadic fogs, I discern a mind-program, a set of beliefs or ideologies, executed with eerie precision. To safeguard my sanity, scrutiny is imperative, as merging with the surroundings would spell a tragic demise for my soul.

A while back, I started looking at the world through a different lens, moving around the spaces created different vibrations, as I started resonating at different frequencies.

Pinpointing the exact "moment" this shift occurred proves elusive. Yet, I can trace one such activation for change to around 9 years ago, precisely on 12/19/2014, when I severed an 18-year partnership with my second husband—a complete nodal return in the Libra-Aries axis, now mirrored in its opposite.

The focus on the WE ARE - I AM dynamic then drove me down the rabbit hole of asking myself just one question:

-How can I have leverage and relate to others if I ignore what my needs and values are?

And so it began then, my journey of emotional maturation and emancipation. Nine years may feel like a whole lot, but in my case, I have been liberating myself in a moment-to-moment manner.

But time is both nonexistence and a continuum, and as souls, we are navigating a materialistic experience with a lot of privilege that at times grounds us too much in matter. The density is needed to practice evolution through mutation while there are rough angles that show up as limitations. There are times that the energy seems to flow, supporting decisions and giving a feeling of being one with nature. Both instances are necessary in this duality.

Power is often misconceived as possession or acquisition, tethered to value. In truth, it's simpler—exerting effort, a proof of work that catalyzes transformation altering states of materials. Power demands effort, and effort is the application of energy.

Ever felt powerless? What does that sensation entail? Perhaps it's a disconnection from the intimate dance of confronting fears and allowing a process of becoming.

Can effort exist without movement? Can energy be conjured from nothing? The answers resonate in the negative.

Perception spans a spectrum with quantitative expressions of energy. Picture musical scales divided into fractions. It's akin to the range of colors perceivable—a mere angle of the complete spectrum. What our eyes grasp is but a fraction of this vast energetic totality.

Under and beyond the hue cycle lie the ultraviolet or the infrared. They exist in the 'invisible' spectrum, yet their existence can be traced as vibrations beyond our perception. This is called qualitative energy. This energetic totality converges to the radius or the emanating light from the core.

Ratios contribute to the creation of harmonic relationships. They compare quantities within the same frequency, creating harmony in a vibratory space. In instances where dissonance arises and impedes mutation, transference becomes the action that carries over into a different mutative dynamic jumping onto another state.

Human action directs the energy to the power of I AM; what sets in motion is the capacity to embrace the individuated state. While these days, either speaking up or not complying may seem extremely risky