Drinking and Depression with Anth Parker

Episode 134

I met this week’s guest in the online recovery community – Anth Parker had tried AA, rehab and SMART recovery and none of them really stuck. However with hindsight she realises that she had collected gems of information from each one – information and strategies which finally enabled her to come up with her own recipe for sobriety. These days she is passionate about sobriety and loves to inspire others.

In this Episode

Anthea didn’t drink much as a teenager but during her 20’s she began to use it to cope with difficult periods in her life and found she needed a drink when she got home from work
As she moved into her 30’s she became aware that she had a problem and was drinking a bottle of wine a day
She called “alcohol services” and asked for help but she was just told to “cut down” as they didn’t think she had a serious problem
My take on that is if your drinking is on your mind then you need to take action – it’s not about being an alcoholic, or waiting to hit rock bottom – it’s about ditching a toxic substance that is preventing you from living your best life
In her 30s Anth had twins so of course was drawn into the Mommyjuice culture with all the other moms
She sufferered from post natal depression and worked hard to convince her health visitor that her motherhood experience was “perfect” when in reality she felt like she was “walking though treacle” as she puts it
Her doctor put her on anti-depressants but her depression continued and she was in and out of hospital
She had to quit her job as an occupational therapist
During her treatment she was told that she would have to stop drinking which horrified her as she saw alcohol as her only respite from depression
She went to AA – after 100 meetings and 3 sponsors she still didn’t get it and hated having to label herself as an alcoholic at the meetings
But in retrospect she did pick up some tools there and gradually they became helpful
It was like planting seeds – her advice to people is to listen, to read, to talk to people and to be curious – as she says “it will all fall into place eventually”
I also love the concept of planting seeds and we see that in Tribe Sober – some people find us and dive straight into their recovery but others stay on our mailing list for years, then they do a challenge, then a workshop and finally join up as members which is when they get inspired to implement everything they’ve learned!
Anth talked about comparisons and how they can be good – or harmful. Yes compare yourself with sober people that inspire you but don’t compare yourself with the hard core alcoholic and start thinking “Im not that bad” – better to compare yourself with the best version of yourself you could possibly be – without alcohol.
Things got really back for Anth just before lockdown – she was shaking in the morning, hiding alcohol in the house and in the garden.
She was fed up of being on the hamster wheel as she called it –the hamster wheel of drinking which traps us – and means we never make any progress in our lives
Her turning point was reading Alcohol Explained by William Porter – she loved the science and read it over and over – finally realising that this wasn’t her fault, she’d simply got addicted to an addictive substance
She joined the Alcohol Explained Facebook group, listened to podcasts and discovered the online recovery movement – she loved all the sharing and realised that she was not alone in this
She wrote a letter to herself which she read every day
She was still drinking at this point but she was listening and learning and her subconscious was preparing for action
We say to people who join Tribe Sober. "Keep drinking if you’re not ready but start doing the work, listen and learn, read the quitlit, come to the Zoom meetings and gradually you’ll ge

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Drinking and Depression with Anth Parker